Disconnecting

The night is quiet, calming. The stars are hiding behind the thick, black sky. Everything is just.. dark..

I don’t mean to complain about my life, about what I’m facing, and what I’m keeping inside. But tonight, as I’m typing this out, I just want to let everything out of my chest. I believe life is a blessing and it comes with a purpose. I believe at this very moment, Allah is the only witness I have to tell the society, that I’m laying here on my bed, trying to accept the fact that I’m alone.

Ya Allah, I feel lonely. I might laugh and smile all the time, but deep down inside, I'm hurt, sad and crying. I tried so hard staying positive, but when something came along the way and make me feel down, I'll shatter again. I can’t, Ya Allah. I don’t have that power of moving on you once gave me.